Last night, I woke up and decided to give this another go. This isn’t the best way to go about returning to lucid dreaming (though I seem to recall having, if not a lucid dreaming, a fairly self aware dream… if that even makes sense).
I should be regimenting this. I should be journaling daily and nightly. Daily for the thoughts, feelings and recall of the previous night’s dreams, and nightly before bed to strengthen the mind for that night’s dreams.
When I was best at doing these things, I had a Mon-Fri, 8am-5pm job, and a mate who typically had a similar schedule, and so staying up too much past 11pm was unlikely, and so exhaustion wasn’t an issue, and neither was a routine.
Now, unfortunately, I close at work, get home between 9:30pm and 10:30pm due to inconsistent managers, and frequently stay up later than I should, and waking up after 5 hours of sleep and not having a blind fold, ear-plugs, and sensing the rising sun, doesn’t bode well for these kind of experiments.
In the meantime, my fails have been mildly interesting. Last night, I lay still (though mentally too alert and unable to quiet my mind) for about 20-25 minutes. I restarted my AlphaTheta Isochronic track, used my earbuds (ear-plugs with over the ears headphones seemed to work much better for me), and tried again. This time I did my utmost to quiet my mind, even if it meant falling asleep and failing.
Instead, my left leg would vibrate and then twitch. I feel if I could have just fallen asleep, this twitch could have been used as a decent enough anchor for pulling slightly back up into mild consciousness, and I might achieve my goal. Alas, it merely irritated me, and my mind started “thinking” and “judging”, despite my best efforts.